Monday Feb. 22

Today was a hard day. It seemed like I hit the wall again and no matter how hard I tried to make things work, there was always another fiery dart coming straight at me. I'm worried about Dan getting the help he needs. I'm worried about having the income to pay for the help. I'm worried about not being with him. I know it just sounds like I'm worrying but I'm also trying to put out fires all along the way.

I had a call from Mark at Wells Fargo Auto Finance - no we don't have a loan with them, but it took me two hours with really dumb phone calls to find out what had happened 2 1/2 years ago that I had never heard of before. Now, $699.39 dollars later I can only hope it's taken care of. I will worry about the rest of the bills another day.

I had an appointment with Lori Woodbury today (thanks to Clella) and I fell apart right there and then. She prescribed some meds for me. One to help with the anxiety and one to help me sleep. I haven't been able to sleep good throughout all of this so I think I'm just plain worn out. I'm looking forward to a good night sleep tonight. I hope I'll still be able to function tomorrow.

While I was on the phone with the Wells Fargo guys, I missed the call from the Dr. and the social worker. I missed one of Tessha's calls and Daniel's too. I was such a mess that perhaps it was a good thing I didn't connect with any of them.

After my dr. appt. I called Tessha to find out about Dan and she said they had to put the catheter back in today. He still has a "track" infection. He can stand but can move his feet and it takes two people to get him to the bathroom and then he usually can't go. He's swallowing foods but he can't feed himself yet. They are looking at moving him to the Rehab Center as early as tomorrow but he still has a 1-1in his room there at the hospital. The Neurologist wants to put him on Depacote but he's been on it before and it didn't work for him then. Maybe this time??? Also, I don't know if they've continued to give him his Carbadopa-Levadopa for the Parkinson's and his Memantine for the Dementia; not to mention all his other meds.

The MRI from Friday came back clear - no signs of a stroke but they were going to do another one today on his back to see if he has a disk out. He can't sit in a chair without a lot of pain.

I'm worried that they will move him to a Rehab. Center and 20 days later he'll be released to come home and we won't have him on the right meds or with the help that he needs.

I think I'd better just take my sleeping aid and go to bed. Who knows what tomorrow will bring. I'd just better be ready for it.